I Almost Decorated My Walls with Scrambled Eggs

A story about shadow work, manifestation blocks, and why staying with the process changes everything

This morning, I stood in my kitchen, holding a spatula, trying to place scrambled eggs onto my avocado toast. Each time I set them down, they fell onto the plate with a small splat. I tried a couple of times to plate my food the way I wanted, but to no avail. It was at this moment that I felt a very real urge to fling the eggs across the room. Not metaphorically. Not suggestively. Literally. Eggs on the wall. Like a full domestic egg-infused crime scene.

Nothing was wrong with the eggs. They were eggs, doing egg things, and gravity was doing gravity’s thing.

But inside me, an absolute agitation and irritation, bordering on rage, bubbled far beyond what the situation warranted. The kind of irritation that makes you wonder if you’ve finally snapped, and if the universe is playing some unnecessary practical joke. It had already been a tough week. I was feeling the weight of the world with its social, economic, and political strain. It was only Wednesday, and my week had been jammed packed with fires I had to put out, and now my damn eggs refused to cooperate.

Let me back up a bit and give you some context as to why I was about to lose my shit on some eggs. I am about 7 days into a 10-day attune program, which has been challenging me in ways I didn’t expect. I was asked to address shadows I forgot existed.

I wish I could say this moment came during a time of great external stress. It didn’t. My life, on paper, is stable. My work is meaningful. My spiritual practice is active. I had intentionally chosen to step into the attunement program to refine my magick, clear long-standing blocks, and move forward with greater coherence. The root was to become more productive and grounded, not ready to fling eggs on the wall.

And yet, there I was, one poorly cooperating breakfast away from redecorating the kitchen. That was my first real clue that the work was working.

The Part of Shadow Work No One Puts on the Flyer

We talk about shadow work as if it’s a poetic descent. A candlelit journey inward. A brave, empowered reclamation of the self, and sometimes it is.

But more often, shadow work arrives sideways. It shows up as disproportionate irritation. Sudden fatigue. Emotional volatility that doesn’t make sense. A short fuse. A full spiral over something objectively small. Like scrambled eggs that won’t stay put.

Shadow work doesn’t always feel like insight or that revelation that clears the fog. Often, it feels like discomfort with no clear source. I am a seasoned Shadow Work Practitioner and Master Facilitator. I have been working with clients, walking them through shadow work, for a decade, and even I get smacked sideways from time to time. Ironically, this proverbial smack in the face is a key indicator that we are close to a breakthrough. Most often, I find this happens when we are deep in the work and taking it seriously. When we are not engaging with it passively or on the surface, we give it potency, allowing true and lasting change to rise and be claimed.

And when that discomfort arises while you’re actively working on manifestation, while you’re trying to “raise your vibration,” align your energy, or call something meaningful into your life, it can feel especially unsettling. There’s a quiet fear that creeps in: “Is what I’m doing wrong? Am I making things worse?”

This fear is one of the biggest reasons people abandon deep work just before it becomes useful. Coupled with the intense aggravation and static we experience before the clarity, this work can sometimes feel unbearable.

Entering the Reset with Confidence (and Mild Hubris)

I mentioned before that I decided to participate in a 10-day manifestation attunement, and I had just completed day seven. This wasn’t my first rodeo. I’ve guided others through similar programs many times. I have also personally gone through this type of work many more times! I understand the mechanics, and you would think I would be ready for it. I respect the process, but the Shadow can be sneaky, case in point. Even those of us who are familiar with how the Shadow can show up can be surprised by it.

I entered this reset feeling prepared. Curious. Open. Maybe even a little confident. I expected clarity. I expected refinement. I expected to identify a few mindset hiccups and smooth them out. What I did not expect was the level of Shadow it would dredge up. This was something snarling and deeply buried. The prompts and work we were doing weren’t alien or dramatic. They weren’t aggressive. It was all deceptively simple questions that went straight for the places where I’ve learned to cope instead of heal. And once those places were touched, the body responded before the mind could intervene.

Hence: the eggs.

When the Shadows Push Back

I think the reason this work was so potent lies in the timing.

The thing about manifestation blocks, especially deeply rooted ones, is that they aren’t just beliefs floating around in the mind. They are embedded patterns that trigger nervous system responses. Emotional reflexes are built from years of lived experience. I was finally ready to address these blocks. I finally had the capacity to name them, see them, and work with them to change the narrative around them.

When you begin to dismantle those patterns, the system that kept them intact reacts. For me, it showed up as irritability. Resistance. A desire to disengage. I was emotionally off kilter. Small inconveniences felt huge. My tolerance dipped. I questioned myself more than usual. There were moments when I thought, “This feels destabilizing.” “Shouldn’t spiritual work make me calmer than this?”

This is when most people stop. The work becomes “too much.” Or “not aligned.” Or “triggering in a bad way.” And sometimes, yes, it may be time to take a step back! Shadow work can shine a light on the core of our dysfunction and remind us that the stories we tell ourselves are lies. This is when we need solid support. Some containers are not equipped for this depth of work, making them unsafe or poorly held. When we’re experiencing the collapse of an old internal structure that has been quietly running the show, we need grounding and sensible support.

Admittedly, this is where the program I was in let me down. If I didn’t know what I know about the Shadow, I would have quit, and there would be no support or safety net for me to land on. I was alone in this work. If I were an inexperienced practitioner or someone brand-new to these kinds of discoveries, this would have been an endgame moment, with the potential to spiral into something unhealthy. Way worse than eggs on the wall. Shadow Work requires support, a trusted friend, a mental health professional, etc.

Spiraling Doesn’t Mean You’re Broken

Here’s something I want to say plainly, because it matters:

• Feeling emotionally unstable during deep Shadow or manifestation work does not mean you are failing. It does not mean you are broken. And it does not mean you are losing control.

• It often means you are becoming aware.

• Awareness without coping mechanisms can feel raw. Unfiltered. LOUD!

The difference between spiraling and integration is not about discomfort arising; it’s whether we stay present with it long enough to learn what it’s showing us. This work is not passive. It’s an active, sovereign choice.

Choosing to Stay with the Process

After I contemplated decorating the walls with the eggs, I posted a message in my friend group about my impulse. Shortly after, one of our friends from the group called me to make sure I was okay. We talked about it (and other things) for about an hour, and that made a world of difference. Suddenly, the seething beast in my head was soothed. I could think clearly.

I chose to continue with the work. Not by forcing positivity. Not by pushing through. But by slowing down. By observing my reactions instead of identifying with them. By letting myself be uncomfortable without immediately trying to fix it. That phone call led me to a choice that changed everything. Because once I stopped resisting discomfort, information began to surface. Patterns became visible. Old narratives revealed their deeply embedded hooks. I could see how certain manifestation blocks and secret desires weren’t about worthiness; they were about safety. About responsibility. About whom I would have to become if I allowed certain things to arrive, or so I thought. That level of clarity is profoundly usable.

The Shift: Awareness Without Collapse

Something subtle but powerful happens when you stay with the work long enough. You don’t stop having reactions; you just start recognizing them sooner. You notice the spiral before it takes over. You pause instead of exploding. You cultivate compassion for yourself rather than judgment.

You begin to respond instead of reacting, and in this, I began to remember:

• I wasn’t becoming unstable.

• I was becoming honest.

• And, honestly, while uncomfortable at first, it stabilizes over time.

What Opened Because I Stayed

By the end of the reset, I hadn’t magically fixed everything. That’s not how real work functions.

What I gained was far more valuable.

I gained clarity around my blocks, not as abstract concepts, but as lived patterns. I understood how hidden beliefs had subtly constrained my magick; I didn’t realize I was still holding on to them. I could see where force had replaced trust, and where rigidity had replaced openness. My manifestation practice softened and became more effective. My magic felt less performative and more nourishing. That’s what happens when shadow work is allowed to do its job. Once I allowed energy to flow, I found new inspiration and coven programs downloading into my creative field.

The 5-Day Witch’s Reset

This experience is exactly why I’m offering a 5-day reset for my community.

Many of you are standing right at the edge of a breakthrough, unsure why things feel blocked, heavy, or emotionally charged.

This reset is designed to be supportive, contained, and grounded. A place to explore blocks without overwhelm. To understand your patterns without self-blaming. To work with your magick in a way that feels human and sustainable. This is an audio-based program for ease, with community support for reflection and integration. It is intentionally curated with a flexible structure to help you stay with the process long enough to walk away with something real. Not just insight, but integration.

Sign up for the reset HERE

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An invitation, not a fix

If you’ve been feeling irritated, stuck, emotionally raw, or quietly frustrated with your witchcraft journey and practice, you’re not doing it wrong. You may be closer to the truth than you realize.

Shadow work asks us to stay. To listen. Letting work change us instead of trying to control it. And when we do, we don’t just manifest more, we manifest differently. With substance. With meaning. With a life that feels like home.

And sometimes, all it takes to realize that… is a pan of uncooperative scrambled eggs.